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At the restaurant...

"Ryan are you ok? Your eyes very puffy. You got allergies?"

I was writing halfway. I decided to delete it all. Argh. :'(

bored in school

I smell pastry. Smells good. I smell cinnamon. Will taste good. Cousins coming over. Not sure how I feel about that. School work is half done. Though I've got monday to finish it, I shouldn't wait so long. I haven't been drawing on my tablet. Gotta start working out the kinks later.

Sometimes you feel like expressing your adoration for someone so much so you're not sure what to do. Sometimes you go the extra mile just to be with that special someone. Sometimes that person doesn't reciprocate.

But it's all good, because all you want is to put a smile on that someone's face. And then you feel great the whole day just for doing that. Today was something like that.

Happy thoughts.

Remember me

I can't remember the last time i made origami. What was it? 5 years?

Not as easy for me as for you.


Sadly.

It's 1:55am and I'm Freakin Distracted. Argh.

Feeling:
Troubled

LOL

OMG THAT WAS SOME HILARIOUSLY SCARY SHIT.














i love you kenny

heart strings

I'm a puppet, a gear piece, a key hole. Only that one person, that one other gear piece and that one key can pull me, push me and unlock me. Make me feel this way. My mind's distracted, but that's alright coz there's nothing else to worry about. Incomprehensible. I'm exhausted. I wanna sleep.

Waiting4you

Soccer. Hmm. What to wear? Haven't done outdoor sports in a looong time. Shirt? Tshirt? Home t shirt? Jeans? Nah, not jeans, bermudas? Too flashy for sports? Home pants? Ok bermudas. The black one. The one I used to wear out. Not really sports clothing, but it's all I got. I think, not really bothering to search my wardrobe.

Then I get there. And the first thing I notice. Kenny. In skinny jeans. Playing soccer. While everyone else is in their thin pieces of sports clothing. Skinny jeans. HAHAHHA.

Rizal taught me some moves. I played with some other unknowns. Ran, sweat, but not tired enough. Rizal hurt himself yet again. Never disolocated my ankle before. I wonder how he deals dislocating it so many times. Ouch. Push ups. Popeys. Chicken. Strawberry jam. Mmm. Faizal and his nonsense. Lol.

lipslipslipslips

It's 1:13am. I've not finished film lang final assignment. I haven't started. not good not good. I feel like I'm getting more lazy this past month. not good not good. focus la

*knocks head

Happy thoughts

Your voice is the soundtrack of my sleep time.

=)

Brave front

"Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes." James 4:14

How true, you can be here one moment, gone the next. Make full use of our time here on Earth.

*

Grudge. What a distant word to me. I don't understand it. I don't think I ever will. What is it? Holding a grudge? Is it my fault that I cannot remember ever holding a grudge? What is it? I don't get it.

Asking myself, am I distracted? I realise that I've been kinda distracted, albeit at a manageable level. Not today though. Yesterday changed today. Today I feel extremely distracted. Distracted distracted distracted. What a word to describe. Thinking. Thoughts. Memories. Not too old memories. Still fresh. I think it will stay there for as long as I can think of. Thoughts. Thinking. Should stop thinking. Flow. Mxide messages. Random subsections of thoughts that are interconnected. Gotta stop. focus. Focus. FOCUS.

~Chemistry

It's time, the chemicals say, it's time
To listen, to listen not
Oh, how can you be sure
That you won't stir up the boiling pot

Fingers not shaking
Heart-a-racing
Open your eyes
Your face is red

When you look back, now
What do you see
Experiments, conclusions
Questions or answers

'Twas time, I felt, 'twas time

Couple of dreams last night. Most memorable of which I was up on the rooftop of some old abandoned HDB flat. There were quite a few of us up there, snapping pictures as F35s, Eurofighters and some others flew right by us. It so real, the building shook and swayed each time an aircraft pass by. I took quite a few really cool pictures, and I was so sure it was Daily Deviation material. Only to wake up and find that I didn't have the pictures. Or the camera.

The Sandman: I had no idea what it was about, but after reading two volumes, I'm hooked. I like how each comic has its own story, though all have connection to one another, and of course, the Sandman. I also like how the story progresses. Each new comic starts off with the reader trying to interpret the speech bubbles and words. Then bit by bit, new information is given, like treats to a dog. And finally we get the whole picture. The marvelous imagination of Neil Gaimen.

The dream realm. The word games between demons. The idea that each god/demon exist only because humans believe in them, and thus the destruction of humans=destruction of the gods/demons. Dreams. Hope. Desire. Death.

Tp library has quite a few starwars comics, to my surprise. Looks like it's gonna be a new popular destination for me. Came back from cell, met this new guy who can OWN a guitar. 8 years of playing it, I'm awed. Jimmy Hendrix, Muse, man this guy rocks. Gotta check out what this music cca in tp he was telling me is all about.

Ah and I'm glad for you, you never stopped trying, and look how things turned out. All the best to you.

Am I expendable?

I hope not.

On another note, I want a Macbook. I'm doing well academically, and almost everyone except me already has a laptop. I should be given a laptop, right? Right?

/rant

Oh and I was taught how to style hair just now by San. (y)

Hello there, I'm watching you

The Exorcist. The movie Alfie damn well pumped us all up for. I can understand why it won the best sound in the 1970s, but now, I'm afraid it didn't live up to our expectations. Not that it's a bad movie or anything, don't get me wrong, but it didn't live up to expectations in terms of scare factor. And I quote Shaun, "This one like comedy sia". Again, not that this movie is not creepy enough, but compared with current horror movies which can scare the shit outta me almost every freakin second, this one scared me. For awhile. Then the we got to see the girl's face all possessed, and we got used to it. Funny eyes? Check. Pale skin? Check. Scars? Check? Spews vomit every once in awhile. Check that too. The scare factor, in this case, the girl, was given a lot more screen time then current scare factors.

Sleeping bag. I brought it to school, no kidding. And it was comfy. Audio lesson was boring, till we had the hands-on session which made things more lively. I wish he would stop shooting himself, saying how dry the lesson was. Self fulfilling prophecy and all that.

Contemplating

"Are you more in love with the idea of love, or with the person you love?"

Wow that really got me thinking. Just read finish the Killing Joke I got for sis at Kino yesterday whilst out with Miss Potatoe. I gotta say, I'm not too impressed with it. Maybe it's because I don't really know much about the Joker, so this backstory didn't have that much of an impact on me. But after hearing from sis who Barbara Gordon really is, I guess it's good value for money if you're a DC fan. I'm still more Marvel, but probably mainly because of the art style, which is so much more dynamic. Though Dc's plots can be more interesting at times. I think. I'll have to get Sandman or Watchmen from the library sometime. Sometime soon preferably.

Well well well

Were you trying to send me a message?

Or was I thinking too much?

Apparently it's the latter.

Busy day yesterday, a lot went through my mind.

Watched Animatrix with Ubin. Really cool. Now I kinda understand what the Matrix is all about. I wanna watch the movies. Haircut later, they better do it right.